Take the black / Darkness in my soul

Take the black / Darkness in my soul

When I look at the future,

I see just so many colors of black ...

There may be a thousand different options,

a thousand different lives I have viewed -

- but all of them take the black in different shades ...

Have I not vowed a-one-time-to-many

never to shed my blackened wings,

have I not spoken one time to often

a prayer in the dark (...),

broken my heart into one to many pieces,

lamented the loss of life one of many days to long ...

There is no turning back.

The darkness in my soul

has condensed to a heart of night -

- there is no lamentation left,

but every look back

only speaks of loss ...

There are footprints in the snow,

and they lead me on.

But they are my very own steps,

taken a lifetime ago ...

I still remember the future

and dream of yester eve -

- will it ever end?

There is no committing the circles to memory

- for every time you gain,

you must also lose ---

So I take a brave step

forward every day

- frightened of the past -

dreaming of a new beginning

- of former glory,

veiled all in black ... [ ]

I have vowed a thousand times

to take the black

- with him or alone -

but it is my black I will take,

and my vow alone ̶

The sky may change,

but this will always remain:

the darkness in my soul.

7.4.2016 copyright Lilly Lime