Impossibility

I miss him,

although I could never be near him.

It is his smile

bursting across the retina of my eyes

that makes my heart ache,

makes me want to be near him,

although I never can.

It is the smile in his eyes,

spinning like a sun across my universe

that makes me love him so

– and wonder what I should say to him ...

But when shall I see him again?

But even if, it would not matter ...

Is it not all madness?

I draw closer to him

in my heart

sometimes,

but in truth I know (–)

he is impossible to reach.

Even when we sit next to each other,

we stand miles apart ...

Whatever should I say to him

if this world were different?

I do wonder,

but I do not know.

So I keep to my smile.

5./6.8.19 copyright Lilly Lime